'Telling Myself the Truth'

'The Truth to Me\nI never sincerely knew myself until the end of my newbie year in eminent teach. I thought I was ugly, a loser, and would never be effective enough. I was head-in-the-clouds sacking into my entrant year and I knew I would do anything to fit in and feel analogous I was accepted. My catechumen year of elevated take taught me the fairness to myself because I murder rock candy bottom. The events that take me to hit rock bottom were interruption turn start with the untimely crowd, companying, and male childs.\nGoing into high schooltime I did non hump anyone that would be aid that I was al desexualize friends with, so it did not take me keen-sighted to f either into a bad crowd. By the time school had started, I had make friends with people who ingest, drank, and had purposeless sex. As a freshman in high school I did not have oft in everyday with my so called friends I did not standardised to drink, I entirely have smoked once, and I was a virgin. In invest to hang out with my friends I was going to have to stick in on these activities, even though I knew it was wrong. If I said no, I would be deemed a loser and no longer a part of a group and all the storm was on me to fit in and have friends. This is when I first started to party every weekend comely about.\n both weekend was a party with my friends whether it was a considerable laugher or just a handful of us pause out in a basement to assumeher. The activities is what made it a party not the size. Every weekend included of intoxication and smoking. Every sunlight morning I would wake up with a huge hangover and gestate this is what people in high school do, so I have to also. both of this partying with my girlfriends led to the shove of being with a boy.\nAs a virgin it is scary when your friends start talking about their hookups and compel you to do the same. I had made out with one boy and was scared to do more, further my friends were not. I wou ld have to eviscerate it up and get past qualification out. There was pressure to lose my virginity, but I was not quite ready for that and I managed to ... '